Wednesday, March 27, 2013

No, you can't always get what you want...

But if you try sometime, you might just find, you get what you need.

Those dang Rolling Stone know their stuff (said in my head with two case you were wondering).

It's a truth difficult to admit coming off of a bout of not getting what you want.  But, everything happens for a reason.

I never really liked science, but I liked the idea of a career in medicine helping people.  So I selected a relatively difficult major, did reasonably well, and then started applying to PA schools.  The first time, I only applied to the U of U, knowing I wouldn't get in but I wanted to give it a try.  I took additional classes and applied to more programs the next year.  Fail.  More classes, more time, more money, more applications...and fail.  Rad.

I tend to be fairly realistic.  I knew it was a long shot.  But I was still really hopeful.

I have accepted my big fat shortcoming for the most part.  More importantly, I have considered what I should to do next.  Physical therapy, occupational therapy, nursing, teaching, I didn't know.  I narrowed it down to nursing and teaching a while back.  I think nursing wins.  Input anyone?

I want a job that is flexible and allows me to be there for Avynlee and any future offspring.  Being a mom is so important to me.  I love the idea of being a stay at home mom but I am not sure it is best for Avynlee's future.  If I can work part time at a flexible, rewarding job, I can be there for her while still making a financial contribution to her future.  I want to be home with her as much as possible.  I want to help with things going on in her classes when she is in school.  I want to be able to attend her plays/games/meets or whatever she is involved in.  I want to be able to pay for her college.  I want to be an example of a strong, educated woman.  I think I would like being a nurse.  I think I would be good at it.  Hopefully it ends up being just what I need.

This is just one of many changes heading our way.  I'm kind of excited.


N Luthi said...

First off I hate when things don't go as planned. But I think you are completely right about finding a balance between being a contributing member of both society and financially as well being there for your kids. I am most assuredly am not the best example since I still work way more than I would like but I personally think it is good for kids to be away from there parents sometimes. It makes them more appreciative of you when you are there and they learn to cope with real life easier. I have heard from many a friends who are nurses that it is the perfect job to be both mommie and career woman. Good luck you will do awesome!

Hailey Jones said...

i am dying over you becoming a nurse. i feel like it is my dream job if i was capable of it. you will be the best. you are the best at really everything you try though, so thsoe damn pa schools. their loss if you ask me.